gottadoit

I knew it was gonna happen because I have had a crazy busy month, I have been a buddyslim slacker!! In the last thirty days I have been all over the place and it doesn’t seem like it will calm down too soon. At least I haven’t slacked too much on my diet and workout routine. I went on a recent trip to Asia and it was hard to get my workouts in, I used jet lag as my excuse. And once I returned home I had a hard time getting back on track, I used the fact that I was still losing as an excuse.

I am looking at finals in the face and dreading them. I have a paper due and a couple of big projects, yikes. Gotta get to it.

I have midterms this week, which means that I need to put my studying into over drive.   Work has been pretty busy the past two days but lightens up after today, luckly.  But then next week is crazy at work and I think I will be working for a straight two weeks!!!   But I can do it I’ve done it before. 

I am having mini anxiety attacks about my weight loss.  When I weighed in at 172 I was so excited to see that my hard work is paying off.  But now I’m scared to even  get on the scale again, afraid that it will go up.  I know that if it does that it doesn’t mean anything but for some reason that number just means so much to me.   I use to get on the scale regularly to make sure that I was maintaining my weight in the 160’s, but then I stopped taking care of myself.  In the past year I had probably weighed myself a handful of times eachtime saying I was in the 180’s.  So I didn’t get on it very often, when I did I lied to myself and pretended like the scale was broken.  Funny I know but also sad.  I can’t believe that I actually believed that the scale was broken, it’s was only twenty lbs off.  Weird that it couldn’t have broke in the other direction. 

The last three weeks I was weighing myself everyother day.  It was good but I got a little discouraged in the second week when it fluctuated a bit.  I was literally jumping around the house when the scale said 172.  The BF was looking at me like I was crazy.   So I have decided to get on that scale only once a week.  But it is only Tuesday and weigh-in day isn’t until Saturday and I’m already having mini freakouts about it.    Ah, how we mentally screw ourselves up. 

I also should mention, to prove how crazy I really am, that I haven’t even cheated or skipped a workout.  I worked out for two hours Sunday. I tried spinning for the first time yesterday.  I have two hours of working out planned for this evening.   But still I am afraid, really afraid.    Silly I know, but I just can’t help it.     

Man was it cold in Washington. I know this is such a silly thing to say considering it was only about 40 degress but I have been spoiled by Hawaii weather and man was it cold! Even though it was cold I loved it. Cold is always great when you know that you are going home to warm weather in just a few days. Plus Seattle is such a great city.

I was worried about cheating during this trip, but I feel that I did good. It really is hard to know how many calories you are eating when you don’t prepare the food for yourself. The first night the BF had worked out really hard and wanted to get a steak. We walked around looking for a place for so long we decided to just go into a sports bar. This was not a good idea, everything on the menu was fried or had tons of cheese on it. I found a turkey burger and ordered one with no cheese and a side salad, when I got it I didn’t eat the bun. I also didn’t have any beer, this is huge for me. I would normal have had two or three with dinner. I knew that I would be seeing my cousin later and I wanted to have wine so I just drank water. I don’t find eating the healthier foods so hard anymore, I know what the other stuff will do to my body. So everytime I needed to eat I just had to take the time to think about what I was going to put in my mouth. Did I really want to waste four hundred calories on that coffee cake from Starbucks when I could have a fruit smoothie for half the calories. When I ordered Subway for lucnh I just said no to the cheese (which I have to admit sucked a little bit). But I felt great after I ate it, I knew I went the healthy route. So I am hoping with time that I will just know what to eat and what not too, not have to worry so much about numbers.

So it is back to beautiful Hawaii today, and I am looking forward to getting back to my home and my mutt. Looking forward to my step class on Monday. Good luck everyone!! I know we can all do this.

I do not feel like working out but I know that  I need too.

It is almost five am and I just finished folding some laundry, and I still need to pack for Seattle. This isn’t an easy task since its been a years since the last time I wore cold weather clothes. At least it is only for a few days.

The BF got up at 330 today to get a workout in, I followed an hour later. My body is tired today, I worked a good twelve hours yesterday plus all the working out. So I am having to talk myself into doing a work out, there is no way I will want to do it tonight in Seattle after a good number of hours flying.

I loved getting support from everyone last night. It was great! Thanks a ton. I really think I can do this with all of your support.

Hi, I have decided to join buddyslim because I figure I could really use support. My boyfriend and I are both working on weight loss goals but it seems that it has been easier for him. He told me yesterday that he’s lost over ten pounds. Which I think is awesome but I can’t help but feel a little discouraged because I’ve only lost four. So here is what I’ve been doing to get my buddy in shape,First I am working out. I am trying to workout 5-6 days a week; I am not allowing any excuses here. I know that if I want to lose it I’ve got to get moving. So I go to the gym and do a step or cardio kickboxing class and if I have the time I’ll follow it up with a strength training class. On days that I can’t get to the gym I’ll do a video at home. My BF is doing P90X and I have done a few with him, but they are HARD. I also like the biggest loser ones and a couple of others. I travel a lot for work and this weekend will be the first trip I’ve been on since I have changed my lifestyle so we will see how it works out. But my goals are to get a workout at the hotel gym and really be careful about what I eat. It is going to be hard.

Second is the food thing. I did the formula and I figured that I needed to eat less than 1800 calories. I have pretty much been able to accomplish this. But I am thinking I might need to lower that amount. I don’t want to do anything drastic because I want to maintain this forever. So I do not want to get discouraged.

So today I weigh in at 175. This morning I got up had a cup of coffee (35 Cal) and did P90X Cardio X video and about 20 min of another video. Had a fiber one bar (130 Cal) before the workout and then had a strawberry/flaxseed shake (305 Cal) afterward. Heading to work now! It’s going to be a busy day full of meetings but I have a few hours free this afternoon before I have an evening function so I am planning on getting in a step class.

I’m looking forward to meeting anyone who has advice and is willing to offer support; I will be there in return.